Jun 17
As much as I try to be positive and loving and caring
As much as I give of myself to all others, all the time.
As much as I try to be strong and supportive
there are times when i think I am tearing at my seams
or
falling into little pieces, like raindrops on the sand.
And as much as I know that I am a grown up
I am strong and educated and
I know my own mind.
Just fucking once I would like to be child here
or the one who gets held
when the dark gets too deep.
Self pity may be one of the seven deadlies but sometimes it’s wholly necessary to feel it so completely and overwhelmingly that when the sunshine comes in, we can notice it and try to discover what it is we *do* in order to escape from it.
Some people choose alcohol, self-mutilation, drugs, sex, gambling, working, controlling, sugar, starvation… Praise to the person who just sits there and feels it or even better yet, feels it but continues to do the next right thing.
Dark Night of the Soul comes to mind. I have been there a few times.
Love, Peace, and Light,
Samsara
PS> Goodness that white background is hard to read the light grey on and the link in the last line as well as the link that has my name ‘Samsara’ up top must be white as well because it seems invisible.
Hi and thank you. Yes this is hard to read. I am not quite sure how to fix it…but I’ll try to figure it out!
I agree that its necessary. I wrote that blog in a huge fit of pity when I’d been told by more than one person to ‘just buck up’ or get off the ‘pity pot’..sometimes a little self pity is really a big dose of comfort. And I did appreciate the sun more, once it came out after my clouds.