So what if you were, say, dying…the end of the road was visible.
What if you had regrets? What if you had things you wanted to do that you hadn’t done.
Of course you’d try to do them, right?
I mean, within bounds, provided it didn’t hasten the dying.
Everyone has a dying wish, or so I’ve heard.
So what, then, if your last wish…your dying wish… the one thing you’ve always wanted to do…what if that one thing was hurtful to someone else?
Would you do it?
I don’t mean kill someone, or maim or otherwise physically harm someone.
But what if something you did..that you did because you have always wanted to do it and it’s literally now or never…what if that something would make someone else sad?
Would you do it, knowing that you wouldn’t have to be around to clean up the mess?
Would you do it, knowing that it was something you’re literally at this point dying to do?
Would you not do it, sacrificing your happiness for that of another?
Would you do it if no-one would ever know?
Then say you found out you weren’t dying, but you’d already done it.
And loved it.
Would you do it again?
Dec 22
I used to prepare myself for the moment I would die. I wanted to repeat the name of God at the moment, and not some expletive, in case it was an accident. Have you ever tried to train your brain to change its natural reaction to the sudden onrush of a car, or to unfortunate circumstances? It’s hard and takes a lot of repetition. In that way, I’ve also trained my brain to NOT wish bad things upon other people, no matter what they’ve done to harm me. These are the people who need my prayers, my well wishes, my blessings…not for God’s sake, not for their sake, nor for anything else other than the fact that by my releasing their hold on me I become free. So to answer your question, no, I wouldn’t do it and I wouldn’t do it again.
Thank you for your insight!